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A Journey in Fasting— Love Wins September 23, 2011

Filed under: Spiritual Journies — lovepaintingrainbows @ 4:33 am

So today I had an experience with fasting. I have fasted several times in my life and for up to 3 days at a time (nothing compared to others). Usually it is for health reasons/cleansing and ends up having a little bit of a spiritual experience. However, today was because of a very odd and kind of embarrassing reason… A few days ago I was eating a really REALLY crispy piece of toast. So crispy, if fact, that as it crumbled in my mouth little pieces got under my tongue and cut up the tissue just below my teeth and to the back. It actually hurt really bad, but I thought nothing of it. Then, as each day went by, I noticed my mouth getting more sore until my right gland in my throat was swollen and it hurt to swallow. All because of a piece of toast… lame.

Well, it wasn’t healing and getting better because (amazingly enough) I keep eating! So, I did a short fast to let it heal. 15 hours (8 hours were sleeping). Then, after eating again… it still hurt. So I fasted for a mere 4 more hours. However, both times of fasting were incredibly challenging for me. I kept thinking, “I have a nursing baby! And he woke me up three times last night! [very out-of-the-norm… teething] I DESERVE food!!”. Then my thoughts proceeded as follows:

“I am so hungry. Oh my gosh I just want to eat. Oh, eggs and cheese and leftover pancakes, and milk, and honey and yogurt and bananas, and a smoothie sound SO good. I am so hungry. And tired. My stomach is growling. This sucks. I hate this. I NEED food. But I want my mouth to stop hurting. I’m so hungry.”

Ok, so now you get to see how pathetic I am sometimes. Well, all of a sudden the Spirit within me said, “STOP. You are ok. You are taken care of. Think of those who feel this EVERYDAY.” Whoa. I just read a very sad fact the other day that said every 4 seconds a child dies of hunger. (This story could totally go under my “Humble” post). Instantly my hunger pain was gone and replaced with a sick feeling. I am here having a pity party for myself over barely half  a day without food and plenty of “meat” on my bones and there are sweet little babes all over the world actually dying because they are hungry.

Not to put a damper on things, but this was a great realization for me to be thankful for what I have and even thankful for what I don’t have. Because I do not have starvation. I do not have a hungry, starving baby. I do not have a lack of food. I do not have to fight to live each day.

I also had a friend say to me today, “There is a lack because we say there is a lack.” The more I thought about this the more it makes sense. We are creating our own realities everyday. Fear is driving us. Don’t let it! People, belief is so much more powerful than we realize sometimes. Start living as though there is enough, and there will be. Just try it. What a more peaceful and loving life that would create. Fear is the root of our suffering. Don’t let it win. It can’t win. Because, LOVE WINS. Every time. Period.

Love, Alisha

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A Journey in Humility September 17, 2011

Filed under: Spiritual Journies — lovepaintingrainbows @ 8:43 pm

Being humbled seems to be a theme for my life right now. I keep finding myself upset or frustrated, or just plain pissed off at someone or something only to soon after be humbled. And humbled HARD. Like knocked down onto my butt humbled. Which is a good thing because the “bruised butt” makes sure that I don’t forget for awhile.

It’s so easy to be consumed by negativity sometimes… I guess because the frustration builds up and it just feels so good to “vent” out those bottled feelings. Cutting down always makes us feel better… (at the time anyways). Thankfully God has placed some really awesome people and circumstances in my life to keep me accountable to good thoughts and words. I had a friend the other day remind me while I was listing off my frustrations about someone that this someone admires my good qualities even though I don’t “feel the love” sometimes. Boom, knocked on my butt. Wow, I can be such a jerk sometimes… (sorry if any of you reading this have experienced my “jerkiness”). This friend said the most simple, honest, and loving thing she knew to be true and my entire spirit changed right then and there.

These instances have happened like five times in the last week. Not that I’m constantly griping… but when I start feeling strong negativity towards some thing/one I soon after am divinely reminded that those thoughts are not my true self. I turn in towards The Spirit and am humbled. Learning to overcome pride is one of the hardest things to learn, but so wonderful. I am so glad that I am learning this right now in my life. It makes life more peaceful and enjoyable.

Here’s one of my favorite verses/songs fitting for this:

He has shown thee, oh man, what is good and what the Lord requires of thee. But to do justly, and to love mercy, and to walk humbly with thy God. ~Micah 6:8

And a few other quotes that are healing to my mind and spirit:

Do you wish to rise? Begin by descending. You plan a tower that will pierce the clouds? Lay first the foundation of humility. ~Saint Augustine

Humility is not cowardice. Meekness is not weakness. Humility and meekness are indeed spiritual powers. ~Swami Sivananda

Humility is nothing else but a right judgment of ourselves. ~William Law

Humility, that low, sweet root, from which all heavenly virtues shoot. ~Thomas Moore

I claim to be a simple individual liable to err like any other fellow mortal. I own, however, that I have humility enough to confess my errors and to retrace my steps. ~Gandhi

We all mess up… but lets all fix it when we do and work to not mess up so much. I hope this was water for your spirit today. May we be full of humility enough to love each other through all of our weak spots.

Love, Alisha

 

A Journey in Selflessness August 1, 2011

Filed under: Spiritual Journies — lovepaintingrainbows @ 3:04 am

Today is a lesson in selflessness and pure love for me. Sometimes it is one of the easiest things to do… but usually not. Especially when you give it and it is not returned. It’s so hard being challenged… but it can be a great opportunity for serious growth.

“See that no one repays anyone evil for evil, but always seek to do good to one another and to everyone.” ~1 Thessalonians 5:15.

“Where love is there God is also.” ~Ghandi

“Anger is the enemy of non-violence and pride is the monster that swallows it up.” ~Ghandi

“Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves.” ~Romans 12:10

“We are formed and molded by our thoughts. Those whose minds are shaped by selfless thoughts give joy when they speak or act. Joy follows them like a shadow that never leaves them.” ~Buddha

“Through selfless service, eternal peace is obtained.” ~Sri Guru Granth Sahib

It is known throughout many times, cultures, and societies that selflessness and pure selfless love are above all else. Reading through these quotes tonight helped ease my mind and guide my thoughts and attitude to a more peaceful place. Hopefully, I can be this all the time… as much as possible.

This is one of the hardest things to learn to be, but it is so rewarding in the end. I hope this is all as helpful to you as it is to me. How can we make the world a better place? Through one, simple, loving act at a time. May your week be filled with this love! 🙂

Love, Alisha